Pride Conviction
2004-08-05 @ 1:50 p.m.
Right now my desire to be a singer is coming back. I really want an exciting life. I want to be on stage singing my heart out, looking gorgeous because I have fifty-billion make-up artists to make me beautiful. *sigh* How come I can't accept God has different plans for me? He's told me that He has something better, and I know He's right. But sometimes...I guess it's just the pride thing again. I want people to go on about how awesome and how talented I am, but honestly I'm not. God has gifted me, that's it. And it's not like I have the best voice ever or anything. This entry is making me sound incredibly conceited and depressed. But I'm not. I'm just really bored.
I'm excited for YG tonight. It's been a long time since I've gone. I haven't seen everyone in awhile. I hope that's it's really good tonight. I've been really fading away from God, lately, it seems. Just slowly... drifting...Okay, wow I hafta go. I've got a song forming in my brain. Later.
Mercedes