Musically Encouraged
2004-10-04 @ 11:55 am
God is so good. He is so wonderful! I cannot fathom His love for me! I could sing praises to His Name, forever! He is so wonderful! He sent His only son, His child, His baby...to die for us, as a sacrifice, so that WE, stupid, sinful, hateful, EVIL people that we are, could live, could love, could be with Him forever. I don't understand it, I can't comprehend it! I don't realize how good I've got it! God is so good to me! How can someone so pure, so holy, so perfect, love something so ugly, so mangled, so imperfect as me? I cannot comprehend it. God is so good.
On Sunday, I played one of the songs God gave me, for everyone. Todd got an email from one of the guys at church that was so sweet! He said how my song nearly brought him to tears. That was such an encouragement to me. While I've been here, the enemy has attacked me with doubts about my music. Here in Japan, I am spiritually on the front lines.
"For our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against authorities, against powers of this dark world and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
The enemy has been attacking me with discouragement and doubt of God's gift to me. He has made all the other incredibly gifted and talented people to discourage me. Instead of just being happy that the Lord has musically gifted these other people (who also happen to be AT LEAST ten years older than me), I've gotten discouraged. I've listened to the lies that the enemy has been feeding me about not being good enough, about not knowing enough. But it's not about my abilities, big or small. It's about God's annointing over my life. It's about my heart. Am I truly worshipping God? Then WHO CARES?!?! If my heart is in the worship, who cares if my singing and playing abilities aren't perfect? The enemy has tried to take from me the very thing I most enjoy, to worship God.
Dear God,
I'm sorry that I listened to the lies of the enemy. I'm sorry that I was more concerned with what people thought, and how good I sounded, then worshipping You. I'm sorry that I forgot about the heart. Please forgive me, Lord. Please forgive me. Help me to worship You from the heart. Change my heart, Jesus. Change my heart. I love you! Thank You!
Love,
Katelyn
I LOVE YA EVERYBODY! PRAISE JESUS' HOLY NAME!
Mercedes