Here I am! Send me!
2004-10-23 @ 12:47 p.m.
I just read ellebell's entry. Dang, she is on fire. When did I last have that kind of passion? I mean really...when was the last time that I was so ON FIRE! for Jesus? I don't want to slip into the lukewarm Christian, mediocre Christianity. I want that fire to BURN inside of me. I want that PASSION back! I want that desire for JESUS! I'm not talking about just desire, I'm talking about a burning, craving, can't live witout it desire for Jesus. I want to go back to being close to Him. I want to be so close to Him that I know His heartbeat. That I can know His thoughts, and just listen to Him speak. That's what I want. I want to be His voice to the world. I want to speak in His holy name. I want to tell the world who He is! So, why do I cower in fear? He said, "I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of love..." Why am I this way?
Lord, I want a heart for the lost people. I want to feel their pain. I don't want to think, "oh how sad..." no! I want to weep, when I think of the lost! I want to weep when I think of them dying without You! Even living without You! Oh Jesus, I don't know how they can live that way! I just don't understand! It hurts my heart to think of trying to get through life without You. Place a burden on my heart. Place a burden on my heart for the lost. They are crying out for You, but they don't know it. They are crying out for someone to save them! You are their Savior! Show them the way! Give me boldness, Jesus, to speak Your words to the nations. Give me boldness. Here I am! Send me. Here I am, Jesus...please, oh Jesus, please send me.