What do I do?
2004-12-01 @ 7:59 p.m.
I feel so confused right now. Rozie finally called Ally, and finally talked to her. Now I feel SO BAD for Ally. Ally's at hip hop right now, or should be anyways...I want to call her, but I don't know what to say. I hate this.
I hate being stuck in the middle like this. I hate this whole situation. I hate the fact that Rozie had to do this. I hate the fact that Ally had to go through this...I hate this situation. And yet it's all in God's hands.
I really should call Ally. I don't know if she has anyone to talk to. She probably talked some to Paige, but maybe not. I would be hurting so bad if this was me, especially as close as Rozie and Ally were. I can't imagine that Ally isn't, but she's so good at hiding it. Whenever she starts to let her feelings show, she hides it. I've seen it. And she tries to sound all happy, but I know that she isn't really. At youth group a few weeks ago, Rozie was doing sort of the "oh, I can't hang out with you anymore" thing, but only sort of. And Ally was hurt. I could see it in her eyes, and it made me so sad, and angry, and I just felt so helpless. I feel so helpless now. I just don't know what to do!
Lord, I lift up Holly and Mary to You right now. I don't know what to do in this situation. It's so hard for me to watch my friends go through this. I know it must be even harder for them. God, I want to call Holly and see how she's doing, but I don't want to bring it up, if she's trying to forget it. God, I DON'T know what to know. I'm so confused. I'm so sad right now, for Holly and Mary, and everybody. Why does life have to be like this? Lord, help me be true friend to Holly. I haven't really been the best friend to her...we're not really, really tight. But, God, I want to be! Please show me what to do. Please help me, help Holly, help Mary. Thank you for your goodness, even at times like these. Show Holly Your love, and grace, and mercy. I love You.
Love,
Katelyn
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6