Sad, Random Thoughts (the cold, rainy weather is making me sad...even though I love cold, rainy weather)
Saturday, Sept. 10, 2005 @ 1:56 PM
Okay...so I have a ton to write about, but I'm not gonna write about family camp right now.
Mary's back from Spokane, but I haven't seen her yet. I feel so out of touch with Mary. I'm starting to feel out of touch with pretty much everybody. I'm excited for y.g. this week and at the same time, not at all. After reading Katie's journal, I feel all sad now. Man, I just wish things could get back on track.
Like, I really badly want to see Mary now that she's back, but at the same time, I kind of don't because I'm afraid things will just be uncomfortable. It's not the same. Nothing's the same. It hasn't been the same for over a year.
Friendships are supposed to encourage one another? So how come I always feel so drained?
I dunno, I love Mary so, so, so much, but I feel so disconnected from her.
:( I need to call her and get together with her and see how things work out. Maybe this is all pointless and stupid and we'll be perfect friends again.
I miss Mary.
Katelyn