Long Entry about Camp!
Thursday, Jun. 16, 2005 @ 11:12 PM
Wow, I have a ton to write. God has done so much in the past couple of days!
On Sunday I left for camp. I was really excited 'cause I seriously needed some spiritual refreshing. Worship was incredible. It was POWERFUL. The first night was so awesome, like everyone was so on fire for God that we yelled for Jesus for like five minutes straight. It was powerful.
Monday was an incredible day! I woke up that morning with this euphoric feeling of ecstasy. I was in this state of bliss. I didn¡¦t even want to wake up I was so happy. And I wondered why, and then I remembered this dream I¡¦d had like two minutes before I woke up. In my dream, Jake Shepherd, this guy that I used to have a HUGE crush on (but that¡¦s another story), came up to me. He started talking about how much of an inspiration I was to him when I worshiped and stuff. It was weird ¡¥cause his friend, Andy Bells (whom I don¡¦t know, kind of like I don¡¦t really know Jake) was right behind him. Mary and Katie were also in the same room w/ me.
Anyways, I was so excited that morning because of this dream. Like in my subconscious I was excited. It was weird. But it really bothered me, too, because I was over my crush on him like 8 months ago. This was after this huge obsession. Not really but kind of. I was so happy to be over him. But then it all started coming back to me. And now I get this blissful feeling when I start to think of that dream, and it really frustrates me. Because I love and hate having a crush on somebody. I hate it now because it¡¦s not like I really even know him, and I had a crush on him for way too long last year. And it also bugged me because lately I¡¦ve been thinking (and I don¡¦t know if this is God or me) that he¡¦s the guy I¡¦m gonna marry. That weirded me out, because this thought kept recurring and recurring. Then I thought, ¡§oh it¡¦s just cause Mary got a word from God like that.¡¨ So, I really dunno. I hate it when I can¡¦t tell what¡¦s God, what¡¦s me, and what¡¦s Satan trying to distract me. Well, I will no longer be distracted by something stupid.
Wow, that was a really long rabbit trail. As I was saying¡KMonday was an incredible day. After this AWESOME two hour devotion in the morning, just spending time with God¡Kthe day began. Monday night's worship was awesome, too. And the message was awesome! Corey Parnell spoke...and I cried. He was my favorite speaker of the whole camp. :)
Anyways, that night, people who wanted a word from God were asked to come forward, and I was just desperate to hear from Him so I went forward. Daniela came and prayed for me and prophesied over me. She prophesied that I would go all over the world reaching out to MKs (missionary kids) who are hurting and who feel alone. She said that I have wisdom beyond my years and that in the body of a young woman is the mind of an old one. She said that she could see me going all over Asia especially. It was really weird that she said that too me, because that morning I had the most fantastic devotions and while I was praying and just basking in God's presence, God told me that I would go to every country in the world. That totally tripped my mind, cause EVERY COUNTRY? Wow.
That night while I was praying and worshiping, I realized something. And it may not seem deep or profound to you, but when I realized it, really realized it in the depths of my heart it amazed me. I realized that all that I wanted to do was to spend time with Jesus. That's it. I mean, that was all that I wanted to do. And y'know what He said? He said, "Now you know how I feel. All that I want to do is to spend time with you.¡¨ It totally and completely amazed me. I knew it, but not to the extent that I did that night.
On Tuesday I really got to get to know the people in my cabin better. Especially this one girl, Megan. She was so cool. She was really searching for God. We had some really cool talks about God. And that night she GAVE HER HEART TO JESUS! I had been praying for her all day and God told me to keep on praying and I believed that that night she would give her heart to Him! YAY!
Worship was awesome that night, too. ƒº I was prayed over and I believe I was healed of my asthma. It¡¦s been a real struggle for me to believe though, because I was incredibly wheezy yesterday and somewhat today. But I believe that God has healed me inside and out, even if the symptoms persist. I believe. I have faith. Jesus Christ has healed me! To the glory of God the Father! Amen!
Okay, I¡¦m exhausted, I still have a ton to write, but I already wrote a ton, so good night!
Katelyn