Sleep Deprived Worship Leader
Tuesday, May. 31, 2005 @ 3:44 PM
Well, I went to the conference with Mary and Katie and Kiya. It was fun. But I am SO tired now. Kiya and I got to have quite a few really good, deep conversations, so that was really cool.
I have to admit, though, that I am really glad to be home.
There is chaos everywhere. My room has been hit by a tornado. I am severely sleep-deprived. I have worship team practice tonight, and I'm just now preparing for it. I am completely clueless as to what I am supposed to do. I am relying solely on the Holy Spirit.
I love it.
God definately has a weak vessel for the y/g worship team leader. I am so clueless. I could complain, but I am going to be thankful in all circumstances. Kiya and I were talking the other night about being thankful in all circumstances. The idea was so incomprehensible to her. And I can definately understand. I've learned, though, that when we start focusing on God and not ourselves, our attitude changes, our situation isn't as bad. And once God changes us, He starts changing our circumstances. So, I will give thanks to the Lord!
God, I just lift up worship team to You. I thank You for each person on the team, and how weak we all are. You work through the weak so that Your strength can be shown. We are all so weak. I am so weak. I don't know how to lead a worship team, Lord. I honestly don't know what to do. I feel like we sound like a train wreck. Y'know, I just don't get what I need to do. How can I lead these people, when I am so clueless? How do I do this?
Only through You. Lord, thank You that I am weak. Thank You that I am clueless. Thank You that this can be kind of frustrating. Thank You for my lack of energy right now, and how exhausted I am. Thank You for this chaos. Thank You for YOU! Thank You for everything that I'm struggling with.
Love,
Katelyn